Yep, I fell off the face of the Earth. Figuratively, of course, but now I’m back. (insert sigh of relief here :)) The last two months have been filled with doctors visits. Thankfully, to God be the glory, everyone seems to be getting better. For years I have suffered from Migraines and frequent headaches. I know many people, especially women, struggle with them as well. Unfortunately, a few weeks ago, I started getting a new type of migraine, Ocular Migraines. The first time it happened I had numbness in my face and then floaters in my vision. The second time was much worse and I lost some of my vision for almost an hour. My husband had to rush home from work to watch the kids, since I was unable to. It was scary, and over the next few days, I had more scares with frequent vision issues and sever head pain. I was loosing the mental battle, fear was setting up camp in my thoughts. I worried about being able to care for my kids, would I be able to continue staying home with them? Would I loose my sight entirely and miss seeing them grow up? All kinds of thoughts were tormenting me.
“You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trust in you.” Isaiah 26:3
This verse helped me quiet the crazy thoughts and instead focus on Christ. I realized I had lost my spiritual sight, as well as, my physical sight. God wasn’t any less in control, He wasn’t any smaller just because some bad things were happening. If I lost all or part of my vision, I could still trust God to take care of my family. God is always God, God is always good. I forget that sometimes. I look at what “I” can control and then feel overwhelmed by what I can’t.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
I pray these verses would encourage you, and if you have lost your spiritual eye sight, that they may direct your eyes back to our heavenly father.