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Battle of the Mind

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Yep, I fell off the face of the Earth.  Figuratively, of course, but now I’m back. (insert sigh of relief  here :)) The last two months have been filled with doctors visits.  Thankfully, to God be the glory, everyone seems to be getting better. For years I have suffered from Migraines and frequent headaches.  I know many people, especially women, struggle with them as well.  Unfortunately, a few weeks ago, I started getting a new type of migraine, Ocular Migraines.  The first time it happened I had numbness in my face and then floaters in my vision.  The second time was much worse and I lost some of my vision for almost an hour.  My husband had to rush home from work to watch the kids, since I was unable to.  It was scary, and over the next few days, I had more scares with frequent vision issues and sever head pain.  I was loosing the mental battle, fear was setting up camp in my thoughts.  I worried about being able to care for my kids, would I be able to continue staying home with them?  Would I loose my sight entirely and miss seeing them grow up?  All kinds of thoughts were tormenting me.

“You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trust in you.”  Isaiah 26:3

This verse helped me quiet the crazy thoughts and instead focus on Christ.  I realized I had lost my spiritual sight, as well as, my physical sight.  God wasn’t any less in control, He wasn’t any smaller just because some bad things were happening.  If I lost all or part of my vision, I could still trust God to take care of my family.  God is always God, God is always good.  I forget that sometimes.  I look at what “I” can control and then feel overwhelmed by what I can’t.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

I pray these verses would encourage you, and if you have lost your spiritual eye sight, that they may direct your eyes back to our heavenly father.

Stay at home mom: my greatest adventure and greatest challenge

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For the record I love being a mom and especially a stay at home mom.  I fully realize how blessed I am to be with my kids 24/7.  I also realize many women don’t want to, or simply can’t, stay home with the kids.  I am not judging.  I don’t think I am a better mom because I’m a stay at home mom.  I’m grateful to have the option.  For me, I would choose second hand clothes over a power suit any day.  That’s how I’m built.  My heart aches when I am away from my kids.  Yes, the non-stop craziness sometimes makes me feel and look like a zombie.  The green-eyed monster does get me at times and I envy other women’s stylish haircuts and trendy clothes.  I dream of a house, with a second bathroom, that I would ban the boys from using.  For me to stay at home our family has to make sacrifices, and it’s not always easy.  Daily I pray for contentment and wrestle with my selfish desires.  Right now I’m reading a parenting devotional, written by Gary Thomas, entitled Devotions for Sacred Parenting.   It’s a short book with only one devotional a week.  The lessons are encouraging and help me keep my focus on the important things.  If you’re a parent, stay at home or not, I pray that God will encourage you and fill you with joy and, with His strength, allow you to meet each days challenges.

Have a great weekend!  Hope to talk to you soon…